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            "title": "gathering",
            "date_published": "2026-02-09T09:38:34-08:00",
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            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003e\u0026ldquo;Man the food-gatherer reappears incongruously as information-gatherer.\nIn this role, [digital] man is no less a nomad than his Paleolithic ancestors.\u0026rdquo;\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cul\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eMarshall McLuhan, Understanding Media (1964)\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003c/ul\u003e\n"
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            "title": "chaos",
            "date_published": "2026-01-30T09:37:01-08:00",
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            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003eOn a philosophical level, [the phenomenon of chaos] struck me as an operational way to define free will,\nin a way that allowed you to reconcile free will with determinism. The system is deterministic, but you\ncan\u0026rsquo;t say what it\u0026rsquo;s going to do next.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eAt the same time, I\u0026rsquo;d always felt that the important problems out there in the world had to do with the\ncreation of organization, in life or intelligence. But how did you study that? I always felt that the\nspontaneous emergence of self-organization ought to be part of physics.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eHere was one coin with two sides. Here was order, with randomness emerging, and then one step further away\nwas randomness with its own underlying order.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eDoyle Farmer, in Chaos by James Gleick\u003c/p\u003e\n"
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            "title": "fern",
            "date_published": "2026-01-06T21:13:02-08:00",
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            "id": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/fern/",
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            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/images/combined.png\" alt=\"mathematical poster displaying L-fern progression over several iterations\"\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n"
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            "title": "travel",
            "date_published": "2026-01-04T10:19:18-08:00",
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            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003e\u0026ldquo;Don\u0026rsquo;t just do something. Sit there!\u0026rdquo; - Zen proverb\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003chr\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eI received the gift of a lovely New Yorker essay from a relative, which blessed me with this opportunity to reflect on and clarify my\nfeelings towards travelling.[1] I was at first reminded of my time spent online dating. \u0026ldquo;I love to travel\u0026rdquo; became a clear signal\nto me to just move on! But why? That essay put words to some of my feelings that contributed to developing that heuristic.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eFirst, the usage of travel for personality. As the article states, \u0026ldquo;I love to travel\u0026rdquo; is highly uninformative. Perhaps unfairly,\nI judged this statement (and to be clear, when unaccompanied by any expansion on the statement) to indicate a certain lack of\nself-awareness, or clear self-knowledge.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eSecond, the favoring of \u003cem\u003edoing\u003c/em\u003e over \u003cem\u003ebeing\u003c/em\u003e. This was for the profiles with photos in every particular location - except\nperhaps where I\u0026rsquo;m most likely to spend my time with said person! I think this derives from Platonic philosophy - \u0026ldquo;a man\nis measured by what he does\u0026rdquo; - and is a particular affliction of Westernized peoples. Not the kind of thinker I want to\nkeep close by.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eThe essay speaks of \u0026ldquo;locomotive traveling\u0026rdquo;, and I am reminded of a tour I did 15 years ago through the American Southwest.\nI recall watching the sunrise in Monument Valley, yearning to lean into the connection between my body and the land,\nbut being very much contained by the Navajo protocol. \u003cem\u003eKeep to the road, tourist, then leave.\u003c/em\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eI complied. They knew what I did not yet understand: I came for an experience, they remain for the land.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003chr\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eIt\u0026rsquo;s interesting to me to observe the correlation between imperialism and leisure travel. At least in Western history, we see\nthe practice first arise in Roman times, only to fall during the Dark Ages, and resurface again in modern imperial Europe.[2]\nDue to the expense involved, leisure travel was restricted to nobility and royalty - only with the advent of modern transport\ninfrastructure did such vacations become available to the masses.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eFast forward to today and it seems there is a distinction worth drawing - between travelling and the idea of travelling.\nWhether it\u0026rsquo;s a resort, a retreat, or some bespoke enlightened lodging situation - an experience is being created and sold in\nyour mind as an idea of travelling. The empire of money and the colonization of the planet and its peoples facilitate this\nideation. Capitalist salesmanship leans on storytelling to refine your idea into an experience. Time, artificially constrained\nby the social order, drives the efficient transfer of experience - and its price.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eThis pattern of conquer-then-consume doesn\u0026rsquo;t seem to me to be tied to Western imperialism, although that may be the flavor du\njour. I can imagine any nobleman from any kingdom or empire performing similar acts of tourism - always removed, always at a\ndistance. Even modern psychedelic tourism, born from the bowels of Burning Man, with all its promises of integrative and\nindigenous experiences, end up with strangers retreating in isolation, with ceremonies designed to meet their expectations.[3]\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eEven though on that old tour, I traveled to experience the beauty and strangeness of unfamiliar lands, this exactly was an\nact of doing. Like a Spaniard seeking gold, I had an story in my mind of what I wanted, and I went out and I found it.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/images/monument_rising.png\" alt=\"monument rising, 2012\" title=\"monument rising, 2012. personal photo.\"\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003chr\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eIt\u0026rsquo;s two months after my mother has passed when I encounter the grief.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eA wildfire has swept through the largest grove of Joshua trees out in the Mojave National Preserve. Wildfires, sparked by\ndry lightning, are not uncommon to the area. The vegetation is rather sparse and damage is typically localized. However in\nrecent generations, invasive cheatgrass has taken root here and spread, brought over the years by travelers and their vehicles.\nGrass fires accelerate and intensify the flames, creating conditions the Joshua trees simply cannot survive.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eI step out of my car, eyes red, feet bare. The ground aches for water. The sky begs for sound.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eHere there is no postcard to experience, no view to behold, no story to consume. There are lava tubes somewhere, maybe, for\nthose who feel the need to see it. Otherwise it is hundreds of miles of desolation, dotted with sage brush, yucca trees,\nflash flood gullies, and the occasional faded map bolted to a shaded wooden frame. I traveled here with little agenda other than\nto experience this devastation, but nothing could have prepared me for its scale.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eThe land shakes me with a torrential grief. It is reality - simple, pure, and unfiltered by human perception.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eThe grasses thrive. The trees wither. There is nothing to do but sit, and bear witness.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/images/trees.jpg\" alt=\"mother, 2023\" title=\"mother, 2023. personal photo.\"\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003chr\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eTravel is fun, and also a class-restricted privilege.[4] Philosophically I agree with the essayist that the benefits of travelling\nare overstated. I am also partial to the mind of G.K. Chesterton and I am tickled to find agreement with him here.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eBut I don\u0026rsquo;t think the average tourist is guilty of believing in their travels as some virtuous means towards self-fulfillment. It\nmore just seems like they are choosing a slightly different way to pass the time until they die. If you have the privilege, why\nnot exercise it?\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eI think some clarifying questions are helpful in assessing your relationship to travel:\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cul\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eAre you traveling to escape your current life environment?\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eAre you traveling to accumulate experiences and stories?\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eAre you feeling called or summoned to a particular travel?\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eWhat else would you do if you did not embark on this travel?\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003eWho else would you be if you never traveled again?\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003c/ul\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eWhen answering these questions for myself I keep close verse 47 of the Tao Te Ching.[5] For myself I have found that unless my\nbody feels summoned to a particular journey, the experience is likely to remain a shallow and ephemeral one. Knowing that awe\ncan be experienced anytime, anywhere - why not here, now?\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/images/verse47.jpg\" alt=\"tao te ching, verse 47\" title=\"tao te ching, verse 47.\"\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003col\u003e\n\u003cli\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://archive.is/20251203180616/https://www.newyorker.com/culture/the-weekend-essay/the-case-against-travel\"\u003eThe Case Against Travel, The New Yorker, March 2023.\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://www.saexpeditions.com/blog/post/the-long-and-inequal-history-of-leisure-travel\"\u003eSA Expeditions, The Long and Inequal History of Leisure Travel\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/217927682-shamanism\"\u003eShamanism, Manvir Singh. Particularly chapter 11, Archaic Revival.\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://www.oneikathetraveller.com/stop-pretending-everyone-can-travel.html\"\u003eOneika Raymond, personal blog.\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003cli\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://terebess.hu/english/tao/ramsay.html#Kap47\"\u003eTao Te Ching, verse 47, Kwok/Palmer/Ramsay translation.\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003c/li\u003e\n\u003c/ol\u003e\n"
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            "title": "houses",
            "date_published": "2025-11-07T21:10:41-08:00",
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            "content_html": "\u003cdiv class=\"textimagepair\"\u003e\n  \u003cimg\n    src=\"/images/Ghost_Town_Visitor_Win_van_den_Heever_1536x1025.jpg\"\n    alt=\"\"\n    title=\"Ghost Town Visitor (c) Vim van den Heever, 2025.\"\n    class=\"textimagepair__img\"\n  /\u003e\n  \u003cdiv class=\"textimagepair__text\"\u003e\n    \u003cp\u003eWhy do the houses stand\u003cbr\u003e\nWhen they that built them are gone;\u003cbr\u003e\nWhen remaineth even of one\u003cbr\u003e\nThat lived there and loved and planned\u003cbr\u003e\nNot a face, not an eye, not a hand,\u003cbr\u003e\nOnly here and there a bone?\u003cbr\u003e\nWhy do the houses stand\u003cbr\u003e\nWhen they who built them are gone?\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eOft in the moonlighted land\u003cbr\u003e\nWhen the day is overblown,\u003cbr\u003e\nWith happy memorial moan\u003cbr\u003e\nSweet ghosts in a loving band\u003cbr\u003e\nRoam through the houses that stand–\u003cbr\u003e\nFor the builders are not gone.\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\nGeorge MacDonald\u003c/p\u003e\n\n  \u003c/div\u003e\n\u003c/div\u003e\n\n"
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            "title": "the bell jar",
            "date_published": "2025-09-07T21:41:37-08:00",
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            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003eI saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story.\u003cbr\u003e\nFrom the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eOne fig was a husband and a happy home and children,\u003cbr\u003e\nand another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor,\u003cbr\u003e\nand another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor,\u003cbr\u003e\nand another fig was Europe and Africa and South America,\u003cbr\u003e\nand another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila\u003cbr\u003e\n                  \n                 \nand a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions,\u003cbr\u003e\nand another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion,\u003cbr\u003e\nand beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn\u0026rsquo;t quite make out.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eI saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death,\u003cbr\u003e\njust because I couldn\u0026rsquo;t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose.\u003cbr\u003e\nI wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest,\u003cbr\u003e\nand, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black,\u003cbr\u003e\nand, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/7511-i-saw-my-life-branching-out-before-me-like-the\"\u003eSylvia Plath, The Bell Jar\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n"
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            "title": "time cat: america (9/9)",
            "date_published": "2025-08-18T08:57:46-08:00",
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            "title": "time cat: isle of man (7/9)",
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            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003eA lot of hopelessness, I think, comes from amnesia.\u003cbr\u003e\nThe past helps us understand the future.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eSomebody said, “What’s the best thing I can do as an individual?”\u003cbr\u003e\nAnd\u0026hellip; he said, “Stop being an individual.”\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eI think we’re beginning to recognize that individualism is lonely and we have a deep crisis of loneliness\nthat Silicon Valley, pandemics, et cetera, have made worse\u0026hellip; the solution is community, being a part of a community,\nfinding a community, supporting community\u0026hellip; I think that people deeply want to be part of something larger.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eCapitalism wants us to be consumers, not citizens.\u003cbr\u003e\nA citizen is part of something bigger.\u003cbr\u003e\nA citizen is a participant in public life.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://alumni.berkeley.edu/california-magazine/the-edge-podcast/the-edge-episode-22-the-edge-presents-climate-hope-and-science-from-the-science-of-happiness/\"\u003eRebecca Solnit, interview\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n"
        },
        {
            "title": "the love song of j. alfred prufrock",
            "date_published": "2025-07-07T21:34:17-08:00",
            "date_modified": "2025-07-07T21:34:17-08:00",
            "id": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/lovesong/",
            "url": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/lovesong/",
            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003eDo I dare\u003cbr\u003e\nDisturb the universe?\u003cbr\u003e\nIn a minute there is time\u003cbr\u003e\nFor decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eFor I have known them all already, known them all:\u003cbr\u003e\nHave known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,\u003cbr\u003e\nI have measured out my life with coffee spoons;\u003cbr\u003e\nI know the voices dying with a dying fall\u003cbr\u003e\nBeneath the music from a farther room.\u003cbr\u003e\n          So how should I presume?\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003ca href=\"https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/poems/44212/the-love-song-of-j-alfred-prufrock\"\u003eT.S.Eliot\u003c/a\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n"
        },
        {
            "title": "wordless meditation",
            "date_published": "2025-05-16T15:44:21-07:00",
            "date_modified": "2025-05-16T15:44:21-07:00",
            "id": "https://neelfirst.com/meditations/wordless_meditation/",
            "url": "https://neelfirst.com/meditations/wordless_meditation/",
            "content_html": "\u003caudio controls\u003e\n  \u003csource src=\"/audio/meditation6_wordless.mp3\" type=\"audio/mp3\"\u003e\n  Your browser does not support the audio element.\n\u003c/audio\u003e\n"
        },
        {
            "title": "vulture",
            "date_published": "2025-05-03T14:41:12-07:00",
            "date_modified": "2025-05-03T14:41:12-07:00",
            "id": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/vulture/",
            "url": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/vulture/",
            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003ebehold your dark eyes,\u003cbr\u003e\nglittering with the knowledge\u003cbr\u003e\nof ancient wisdom\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003ebehold your sleek wings,\u003cbr\u003e\ndivine shields, warm blankets, and\u003cbr\u003e\ninstruments of flight\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003ebehold your sharpness\u003cbr\u003e\nbeak and talon fiercely honed,\u003cbr\u003e\ndelicately used.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eyou seek the wounded,\u003cbr\u003e\nthey beg for transformation.\u003cbr\u003e\nyou sanctify them.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eyou digest their world.\u003cbr\u003e\nyou purify their remains,\u003cbr\u003e\nyou nurture your kin.\u003c/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003egreat mother spirit,\u003cbr\u003e\nbeautiful, inscrutable,\u003cbr\u003e\nbehold yourself in full.\u003c/p\u003e\n"
        },
        {
            "title": "three little birds",
            "date_published": "2025-04-10T14:24:21-07:00",
            "date_modified": "2025-04-10T14:24:21-07:00",
            "id": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/threelittlebirds/",
            "url": "https://neelfirst.com/posts/threelittlebirds/",
            "content_html": "\u003cp\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/images/three_little_birds.jpg\" alt=\"image\"\u003e\u003c/p\u003e\n"
        }
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